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I feel good about my work right now, I know it will only get busier with time but right now it is good. 

This weekend my roommate left and I felt like I managed my time a lot better and did get a lot of work done. Today though, it took me ALL day to do a case study, it was very annoying! and as I'm writing this i am not doing my work but its a good break! 

My birthday is this week and everyone is asking how I feel about it, and truthfully i have so much work and a test the same day to really think about it! I am going home though to see my sister for her birthday three days after mine!

Going back to my roommate leaving, I feel like I needed a weekend to myself, not saying that she drives me crazy and I dont love her. I do love her its just good sometimes to take a break and be by yourself for a bit especially after being snowed in for a couple days last week! last year I did not have a car on campus and my roommates left a lot so those weekends were tough. I felt stuck, i couldn't really go anywhere, didn't leave my room, and just sat around. I was literally depressed for a weekend, and it would be fine when they came back but this weekend was different. I have a car, I can go to dunkin, or to the store or simply go for a drive. 

I think for this upcoming year, I want to be more disciplined with myself. I feel like that is a good goal for this year, is it? This is really my last summer before I start being an actual grown-up. Me and my friends always say, "I may be an adult legally, but I am not a grown-up." I always get this feeling that I want to skip these years and go right into my job and family, but then I think about it I would be losing time with my friends, family, my sister, and my parents. I just don't want to do homework anymore, i am sick of it. I just finished a case study that is due tomorrow and there is another one due on wednesday, i do not have time for that. I want to go to work and come home and not doing anything. 

Do you ever feel like you are behind or arent working hard enough? that's how I feel now. I feel like i will be a good nurse but what if im not, i don't feel like i know anything, which i do know things but i feel like less than others. this is another reason I want to be more disciplined. I have my last med math test tomorrow. I have been doing quizzes all weekend. And i can do it I know I can i just need to breathe, relax, focus, and read slowly. I know I can. Please God I know I can! I will be praying tonight, my angels are watching over me. Please pray for me! 

I never know how to end these things.